My hormones are affecting my diabetes
I have really high hormones because of diabetes. I'm fed up of it - sometimes in the night I start to cry and try and hit the bed because I'm so mad with diabetes. I know it's good to be different, but i don't like feeling too different. I'm starting secondary school in September and I'm worried that if i go low in class and I take some sweets everyone will look at me. How do I stop this?
It is perfectly normal to feel angry about having diabetes, particularly at times in your life when things are changing and diabetes is causing you anxiety. Not everyone thinks that being different is a good thing and when you are moving up to secondary school and want to fit in it is understandable that you don't want to stand out too much, at least not until you get to know everyone.
At your age and into the teenage years, it can be particularly difficult having diabetes, because of the hormonal changes in your body, growth spurts etc. which can make diabetes difficult to manage but also for social reasons such as not wanting to deal with a condition your friends don't have to and not being tied to monitoring blood glucose levels and giving injections. Don't feel bad about being angry with having diabetes, everyone goes through similar feelings at some point and why shouldn't you feel cross if it's making things hard for you right now?
Of course getting angry won't help though, you have diabetes and it will have to fit into your life at all stages including times when you have other reasons to be anxious. But try to make the condition fit into your life, rather than to fit your life to the condition. People who notice you eating snacks, checking your blood glucose or doing injections, may be interested to know why you are doing that, and it may serve as a useful ice-breaker and conversation starter with new friends.
Do you have any friends from primary school moving up with you? Anyone who already knows you have diabetes and is totally used to it and familiar with how you treat it? They could be a really helpful support. If there is anyone, you could let them know how worried you are about people noticing you are 'different', having a friend around for support is really important.
In terms of worrying about hypos in class, does this happen to you often? If you are having a lot of hypos you might find it helpful to see if you could let your diabetes specialist nurse know just in case you need to change your insulin dose a little, or even to discuss whether you might need a morning snack to stop hypos happening in class.
Moving up into secondary school can be a scary time and everyone feels a little bit nervous about it, but having diabetes does need to make that any more difficult for you. Tell the people you want to tell or keep it to yourself if you'd prefer, there is no right or wrong about who must know you have diabetes. Once you settle in to your new school and make friends, managing your diabetes and people's reactions probably won't matter to you so much anyway.
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