"... I feel that I can't live with diabetes anymore. I feel no one understands and no one cares - like everyone's against me - but they're not, they only nag because they care and they want me to live a happy normal life ..."
I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes when I was 10. I'm 13 now.
I was just moving up to year 6; it was the six week holidays. My mum got really worried because I lost a stone and a half in just three days! I was drinking A LOT and I kept going to the toilet. I felt really run down and fed up, and I slept a lot too.
My mum took me to the doctors first, and I had loads of stuff done. My doctor told my mum and I that I had diabetes and my doctor herself had to drive me in her car to the hospital because I was so far down the line that I couldn't wait for an ambulance or I would be in a coma. Anyway, I got to the hospital and I was in there for just over a week.
Feeling like it's the end of the world
For about two years now, I will admit, I haven't had good control. My bloods are always reading very high. I hate it. I feel like it's the end of the world to be honest, but reading all other peoples stories, I realise it isn't.
I always say to myself, "Come on Katie, buck up, do it properly." but the next day it's the same; I miss injections and don't control it properly.
I -unlike all you other people with stories- feel that I can't live with it anymore. I feel no one understands and no one cares, like everyone's against me -but they're not, they only nag because they care and they want me to live a happy normal life.
I want to fulfil my dreams
I understand that people with Type 1 diabetes usually do have a shortened life expectancy, but I just want to fulfil my dreams before I go. I need to buck up and say to myself that I can do it, it's not the end of the world and get on with life.
It may be difficult, but I want a future. I want as much of a normal life as possible.
Thank you for reading.
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Your comments
yes i now do understand that they nag because they care. i know that now:-)
+ yes, my family know someone who has died because they wasnt doing it propley, i want to live my life as much as i can, and until i realise that me being diabetic wont stop me doing that, ill be held back. people need to be strong. :-) x
- Katie
katie i understand exactly how you feel i have had diabetes for ten years now and that is all i got is nag nag nag but about a year ago i understood why everyone was nagging me because my mums friend passed away because he did not do his injections and didnt take care of his diabetes if you look after your diabetes in the long run you will feel a lot healthier and active i hope everything goes well and remember they are nagging because they care :) - Nathan