"... I feel that I can't live with diabetes anymore. I feel no one understands and no one cares – like everyone's against me – but they're not, they only nag because they care and they want me to live a happy normal life ..."
I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes when I was 10. I'm 13 now.
I was just moving up to year 6; it was the six-week holidays. My mum got really worried because I lost a stone and a half in just three days! I was drinking A LOT and I kept going to the toilet. I felt really run down and fed up, and I slept a lot too.
My mum took me to the doctors first, and I had loads of stuff done. My doctor told my mum and I that I had diabetes and my doctor herself had to drive me in her car to the hospital because I was so far down the line that I couldn't wait for an ambulance or I would be in a coma. Anyway, I got to the hospital and I was in there for just over a week.
Feeling like it's the end of the world
For about two years now, I will admit, I haven't had good control. My bloods are always reading very high. I hate it. I feel like it's the end of the world to be honest, but reading all other people's stories, I realise it isn't.
I always say to myself, "Come on Katie, buck up, do it properly." but the next day it's the same; I miss injections and don't control it properly.
I – unlike all you other people with stories – feel that I can't live with it anymore. I feel no one understands and no one cares, like everyone's against me – but they're not, they only nag because they care and they want me to live a happy normal life.
I want to fulfil my dreams
I understand that people with Type 1 diabetes usually do have a shortened life expectancy, but I just want to fulfil my dreams before I go. I need to buck up and say to myself that I can do it, it's not the end of the world and get on with life.
It may be difficult, but I want a future. I want as much of a normal life as possible.
Thank you for reading.
:-)
UPDATE
Thank you for all your comments! I'm glad I can help in this way... I'm 14 now, and I'm becoming more and more confident each day!
I hope all of you are coping well with your diabetes, as I am now with mine! :-)
Don't forget: diabetes doesn't control your life.. you do! :-)
Katie
Your comments
I defo know exactly how you feel I really do ive had it nearly all my life being seventeen its a long time :/ it sucks. I have no control of mine I hate life with it :/ I always put myself in hospital hoping it will finally kill me sad I know :/ I'm losing my sight and my feet get shooting pains don't go down my road its a horrible thing to feel like you want to die 
– Jessica
I know exactly how you feel my mum is the same always nagging me to write my bloods down. I've had diabetes for 11years now and ii am only turning 13 this year. it seems hard and it is especially when people 'forget' or don't properly understand your condition and it scares me when i hear some of the problems it can cause you are not alone – Bob
Thank you for sharing your story. I was diagnosised with diabetes 3yrs ago. In the last four months I've had to start using insulin, and in the last four months I've had to inject at least 5 times a day, and am struggling with the injecting and balancing with carbs but I know other people who have lived with this and certainly have achieved their dreams.
What I know now is that your not on your own. And yes its annoying when mum, friends or family nag, cos my lot are doing it too but like you said its because they care.
Keep going and keep smiling cos you'll get there, it just takes time. – Lisa
katie i understand exactly how you feel i have had diabetes for ten years now and that is all i got is nag nag nag but about a year ago i understood why everyone was nagging me because my mums friend passed away because he did not do his injections and didnt take care of his diabetes if you look after your diabetes in the long run you will feel a lot healthier and active i hope everything goes well and remember they are nagging because they care :) – Nathan
yes i now do understand that they nag because they care. i know that now:-)
+ yes, my family know someone who has died because they wasnt doing it propley, i want to live my life as much as i can, and until i realise that me being diabetic wont stop me doing that, ill be held back. people need to be strong. :-) x – Katie
Hi Katie, I know EXACTLY what you're going through! I have had depression and feelings of worthlessness for about two months. It's really difficult, I've been rushed into hospital twice after my diagnosis in May 2010 but try to keep control, I talk to my parents when I'm blue and it helps! ;) hope you feel better soon! :) – Molly
katie i know exacly how you feel. i feel like this everyday. remember to keep talking to people. thanks x – Amber